the life and times of Lil' D

To fill you in on my life:

My friend Gaby was here last week, he flew in from LA and we had a great time stomping around Boston a little, and then we went rafting on the Kennebec River in Maine, oh my goodness, I was so nervous but it was sooo much fun to go and do that. We stayed at this quaint little place that was really cheap and great and I had a nature to the max experience. I really enjoyed it- it seems like a great place to go for bonding because all you can really do there is enjoy each other's company and nature. Anyway, Gaby left yesterday...

What else? Speaking of bonding, guess who I am NOT getting any bonding time with at all...of course, the newfound love of my life- ok, that's a little dramatic, but I really like dude (as is already on the record). He's basically told me that he won't be around this week at all (he is busy promoting the concert that he is working on all summer, it's this Friday). I am trying to be uncharacteristically calm about the situation- which is hard because it is clearly uncharacteristic of me. And now that there is intimacy issues...well, that's just it- I am having intimacy insecurities..."what if he is just using me?" "why am I such a slut?" and "does this mean he doesn't like me anymore?" etc etc...but I think at the end of the day it's that sex is independent for him..in other words, it doesn't mean he likes me because he is having sex with me, but it also doesn't mean that he is not interested in a relationship because we are having sex. Ahhh...such is life, we'll see how this goes. Sigh, I am riding that fine line of not taking too much shit from a guy but being understanding and grown up about the situation.

I am not sure how successful I am at this.

Other zeta news: tomorrow we are having the Stork's Nest Launch for Delta Omicron Zeta chapter here. I am excited, I get to go wear my line shirt and represent to the fullest. Did you see Victoria's email? I am always touched by her zeal for keeping in touch with people...I am not being sarcastic, by the way.

Have you heard from Joan? Is she still alive? She crosses my mind sometimes and I hope she is doing alright, like not being beat up by some dude. I worry about her.

Anyways, would you ever be interested in rafting? I don't think so becuase you don't swim, but it was really fun and would be a cool bonding type experience for a bunch of women to do together. But so would a cruise to the Carribean!!!

On that note, back to work on my client so she doesn't get deported!

Love ya
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