...Nothing's ever promised tomorrow today...

First, I wanna say I'm glad to hear Lil D's escapade with her new L.O.M.L. was so great! If I know ya'll, ya'll were doin' it BIG!!

On another note, why the title of my blog...that Kanye West song with Adam Levine of Maroon 5, "Heard 'em say". If you don't know about it, it's hot.

It seems that I have created a situation that I am battling within myself. To feel or not to feel? Feelings are supposed to be natural. But what if I am having an inkling that mine are not naturally real? There are times when I question my own judgement, am I doing the right thing? Am I setting myself up to fall into a trap? Is this real, will I feel the same way next week, next month, even tomorrow? Someone slap me the next time I think of giving up my celibacy...slap me hard. Sad, but true, I'm not sure if what I'm feeling is real or if it's just crazed emotion. A part of me wants to believe that my feelings of great intensity for this man are real, but I would consider myself a realist (at times), and this time I'm trying to be real with myself, but I'm not quite sure if these feelings are true or if they're just truly lust. Damn, that sucks, huh?

And I heard 'em say, nothing's ever promised tomorrow today...

Confused yet? Good, me too.